me and 10 year old soul friend neighbor girl create drawings together. she came up with the ideas and titles.
i also don’t know how to say no to children when they want to hang out and i’m busy. how to say it… not knowing when you’ll ever have free time to sit with them and play and teach. i don’t know.
…there was a girl named with the same name who was here…
i dreamt about this experience 4 years ago… it was all meant to be…even around the same TIME. but there is no time, the prophets say.
the time has come, the walrus said
to talk of many things
of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax,
of cabbages and kings,
and while the sea is boiling hot, and whether pigs have wings
come run away
with the cabbages and kings
Feb 23Feb 18
this is what we do at our cult community
February 12, 2014 A few days ago, I went into the yoni cave with my friend. It was formed from the magma and create a nice space for mother earth to take you into her womb for a darkness retreat. We sit in silence and I open and pour out my heart to my beloved friend. I healed and really REALLY looked at a deep wound. Jealousy. That scorned jealous 23 year old woman was just an innocent child at 13 with her heart broken and feeling like she couldn’t trust anyone. The single mention of another person’s name her partner was attracted to would bring up big jealousy. Jealousy steams from a feeling of -lack of self worth -like I can’t be alone, because I don’t like myself -like I’m not beautiful and I’m comparing outward beauty -like I don’t have any control -like Fear in my Face after a while, I am released. A big big tidal wave of WOW thank you beautiful partner for reflecting my biggest shadows. I stand in the trinity of light, shadow, and the center point. Past, present, future. Exes and Ohs and My self. 3 months in Hawaii. What happens next is only happening now.
I feel like everything is very spontaneous God the wonderment The joy of rereading my simultaneous illusion of past yet ever present journal entries They astound me And move me There’s so much gold within me